Every time I listen to 'Screaming Ground' by Yourcodenameis:Milo, I am immediately reminded of the last 6 months of first year university. There are a lot of reasons for this, and the more I think about it, the sadder it all is. I don't think any of the people I spent a lot of time with then (Helena, Geordie Ben, Joel) would claim that I was a completely happy person, but when I think of it now, I was happy. Everything was exciting, everything was new. Everything was entirely frustrating, we all agreed on that. I've spent a lot of time recently just looking at photos from that year, and every single one of them brings very clear memories to me (I know a lot of people say that about photos, but it is true for this time in my life). For instance there is a picture of myself, Joel and Laura in our halls living room, kneeling on our shoes for a photograph in order to look like little people. I can clearly remember doing that. The photos of jazz pong, I remember how excited we were by such a simple thing. Myself and Ben in our underpants, moments before opening the door to Paddy. Me and Helena with green felt pen moustaches and monobrows. I clearly remember that after that we went over to her flat, she made a fish finger sandwich and I was convinced that she would die because it looked undercooked. The superhero night, and Ben in Helena's superman costume. Joel and Me moving the table into the kitchen for a cup of tea. Paris. The picture of me and Helena eating ice lollies in the park, I can remember looking around me at that moment. In fact, that is my clearest memory from the last 4 years of my life. I remember exactly how cold it was, I remember how many people were around, and I remember my ice lolly melting. The more I think about that moment, the sadder/happier I become.
Where do Yourcodenameis:Milo fit into all of this? Well, plainly and simply they are the most important thing to have existed in my life that doesn't come under the umbrella of human relationships. The ironic thing as well is that I would grow to become good friends with them, which I am lucky to say. And as I said a million times back then, musically they sounded like music I had heard in my head for years. That is what I wanted a band to sound like. 'Screaming Ground'? By no means my favourite YCNI:M song, that would have to be 'The Dead French', 'To the Cars' or 'Team Radar'. It wouldn't feature in my top 3 from 'They Came From the Sun' either. (To the Cars, Translate, I'm Impressed). Well, again, this is to do with memory. I remember getting the bus back from university and then walking to our halls, listening to that album. It was very close to the end of the year, a couple of weeks out. The sun was out, the roads were busy, and all was well. I had literally just started talking to Yuka (I miss you) on a frequent basis. There is a lyric at the end of 'Screaming Ground', that goes '...maybe then we'll address what is on our minds'.
If I'm honest, with a few exceptions, I have probably spent every moment since then not speaking exactly what is on my mind, and it is one of the reasons as to why I'm not totally happy now. The solution? Well, I wouldn't say that it would be to explode and say everything that is on my mind, because a lot of it is unimportant just moments later. However, one thing does need to be spoken about, and when I come home for Christmas it is at the top of my list of things to do. Ashley Morton, I apologize in advance, hah.
This has nothing to do with Bosnia at all. Which is a shame really, we've had a couple of guests stay for a long time now who have been absolutely brilliant. Scott in particular, an American guy who knows his football and supports Borussia Moenchengladbach. We've spoken about Nikola Tesla a lot (on the first day, Tesla made god). Tesla rules. Tomorrow is mild Thursday once again. The weather is still blindingly hot.
This is not an official video.
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